Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Major Life Changes

I think that I need to make a few things clear since I pulled some skeletons out of my closet for the world to see. My life is much different now that I am older. I have learned to cope with life struggles in a more positive way. I have started making a point to look at the brighter side of life. I started using much better language. (Notice I deleted the post that had obscene language.) It is because I have gained respect for our heavenly father. If you read these poems from my dark past you will notice I was very disrespectful and didn't seem to believe he didn't exist. This was because my struggles seemed so bad to me that I didn't WANT to believe. Everyone was saying to me "its God's plan" and it seemed cruel. I would rather believe he didn't exist than hate someone I was raised to love. When I finally stopped rebelling and turned back to God to ask for help, he was waiting with open arms. He sent me a great group of people who help me stay sane.

I felt I had to dig up these skeletons for my readers, though, to show my progress. I am currently writing a blog about my life today to give insight to people with depression, and I want them to see my writing at its darkest so they can appreciate my lighter, encouraging writings of today. I will add more of my darker poetry that is appropriate language wise. I am not worried about offending people with the language as much as I am worried about harming my relationship with God. I have worked hard to get where I am today and even though I cannot delete the writings from the past, I can keep them hidden in the journal where they originated.

If you are interested in reading my other blogs they are in my user profile.

That is all I have to say for now. Have a great day.